“Usually I write about my real-life experiences, my true stories. I especially did that on this album.” (x) Well, let’s have a look at those lyrics, then —
I feel like my heart hast stopped beating. You and I, frozen there, after a war. Trauma that has been carved in my head. Once these tears dry up I will moistly remember our love.
I’m neither pained nor lonely, happiness is all self-talk. I can’t stand something more complicated. It’s no big deal, I don’t care. Inevitable wandering, people come and go.
Do you remember the day we first met? When you looked at me filled with a pure, innocent smile. Sauvignon Blanc.
And the pointless obedience I sent back to you, [sometimes our strong wills clash*] then the endless moves I made on you, even though our destiny was to end up being parted. My last resentment.
You say I’m different from other guys, so it’s hard for you. You’re still like a girl, the way you are delicate. You always laugh next to me, I’m still too young for you.
With the excuse that I’m busy, I’ll postpone our date. Because I’m sorry, because I’m frustrated, I turn my head.
The bride of my dreams is only just a friend now. Upset over the break-up, we are silent.
Ain’t No Fun
A confident but graceful queen and her merciful scholar. There’s nothing I can do, it’s just time. Without reason we often confine each other [we lock each other up with reasonless obsessions]
Without flirting and mind-games we are sadly just [unexciting] friends.
Judged by these lyrics T.O.P does not have a have a lot of happy memories when it comes to love. (Or not any that he decides to write about, anyway.) He also comes across as extremely melancholic.
Do these lyrics refer to a past girlfriend he’s still hung up about? Someone who is still a friend? Or only ever has been a friend? (Because the whole friend thing recurs a couple of times… and no, I’m not gonna name names, however tempting. ;-)
(* lyrics taken from YouTube and BB.updates. Sometimes there multiple translations, I’ve added the second translation between brakes.)